Sunday, August 8, 2010

A Very Special Tribute to Bailey

This past week has been a tough one. I have some thoughts and a very special scrapbook page that I would like to share:

Exactly twelve years ago life as I knew it changed forever. On August 5, 1998, I dropped my nine-month-old daughter, Bailey, off at her babysitter's house on my way to work. I was a teacher and that particular day was a teacher work day. I was preparing my classroom for the coming school year. On that morning I can vividly remember dressing her in the cutest little yellow jumper and she was laughing and smiling the entire time I was getting her ready.  When I got to the babysitter's house the other moms commented on how happy she was all the time. They said, "She is Little Miss Sunshine, smiling and happy in that yellow outfit". I sat her down on the playroom floor, kissed her goodbye, and as I was walking out the door she waved goodbye to me. Little did I know that would be the last time.

Later that afternoon I raced out of school to go and pick her up. It was just after 4:30. I had decided to stay late that day so I could leave early the next day and spend the afternoon with her. That decision was life-altering. When I arrived to the babysitter's house there were a million rescue WORST NIGHTMARE. I frantically fought my way through a crowd and screamed, "Where's Bailey?". I can remember everyone looking at me with fear in their eyes. To this day, I can still hear the man's voice who said, "M' am, they're trying to get her breathing". What? I was thinking a broken bone, a fall off the swing. Not breathing!! I hopped on the back of the ambulance and watched them resuscitate my daughter.

She was airlifted to a Tampa hospital where she lay in a coma for two days. I learned that the babysitter left the children alone for at least 20 minutes.Bailey was left alone to crawl around on the playroom floor. She was learning how to walk at the time and pulled up on everything she could get her little hands on. The babysitter left an old highchair out in the middle of the playroom floor. This was the kind that had a space separating the seat from the back (they don't make these anymore). The straps were still hooked and hanging out of the back of the highchair. A noose. She had apparently pulled herself up on the back of the highchair and slipped; hanging herself on the loose strap that was hanging out the back. She had the best medical teams available working to give her every chance of survival. It was no use. She was brain dead. On August 7, 1998, still on life-support, wrapped in my arms, Bailey passed away.

I still have the yellow outfit wrapped in plastic. I pull it out about once a year just to smell it. I can still smell her on it. Crazy, but true.

If you have read any of my previous posts about Bailey, you know my scrapbooking story. This is the first page that I have completed since she died. The picture was taken when she was only five-months-old, however, it perfectly depicts her smiling disposition. It was also the picture the local media used all those years ago.

Note:  I have been working on this post since Thursday. I had planned to post it much earlier and also planned to write a lot more. I had to do a little at a time to keep my sanity. I apologize for the choppiness. This is very difficult for me. I managed to get in some retail therapy and got A LOT of new cartridges. I am ending on a positive note and I promise my next post will be FUN!!!


Kimmy :)


*strips of punched kraft paper
*Lovely Floral Cricut Cartridge for the flowers
*Rock Princess Cricut Cartridge font
*Prima flowers
*Colorbok patterned paper and cardstock
*White Sakura gelly pen
*Stickles (used on the hearts on the letters)


  1. What a beautiful tribute to Bailey! What a gorgeous memory of your daughter. My heart aches and I shed tears of sorrow for your loss but also of joy for the short but special time you had with her. Nothing can ever heal the loss and I pray that God will strengthen you, walk with you and continue to help you cope with this tragedy. I am glad you have found scrapping to help mend your heart. Congratulations on sharing this with was a huge hurdle and I admire your courage! xxoo

  2. I have no words.

    Beautiful Baby.

    Beautiful page.

    ♥ Nikki ♥

  3. I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you have had to endure. I can't even imagine it. This page is absolutely gorgeous, and Bailey is beautiful. What a smile! August 5 is a very sad day for me as well. It was three years ago this August 5 that I lost my younger sister (she was 31). My life has not been the same, and as for mom, she barely functions. Everyone used to call my sister an angel on earth. I am sure that she is watching out for Bailey...that was always my favorite name for a little girl heaven. TFS your story and such a beautiful page and picture of your little angel. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.


  4. Thank you for sharing the story of your beautiful Bailey with us. I feel very honored to know about her. She is a true angel and is now smiling every moment for our Lord. I pray for you and yours that your hearts find some peace in each new sunrise because surely Bailey's smile from heaven is part of its beauty. God bless and hold you close.

  5. Mere words cannot express how my heart goes out to you on the loss of your beautiful Bailey. This cannot be easy. I am so glad that you have found a way through your creativity to continue to honor her and your never ending love for her.

    Big Hugs!! Jenny Kozar

  6. Hello Kimmy...I have been Blessed to know You since you were a Little Girl...I shared Your Sorrow that week...I will never Forget what you went through & Still do...Sweetest Baby Bailey is Truly an Angel In Heaven & I know how She watches over You & Your Beautiful Boys & Her Grand Ma Ruth...I Keep You & Your Family always in My Prayers...I Know that with every Sunrise & Every Sunset & when the Moon Rises & The Stars Twinkle...Bailey is with You She Lives in Your Heart & Soul & One Day You Two will Be Reunited...In Heaven...The Angels are all around You Kimmy...Keeping you Safe...Amen! xoxo~Angie(Tink!)

  7. You have no idea how much these comments mean to me! All I can say is THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. Hugs, Kimmy :)

  8. Thank you for sharing your story. This page is a wonderful memory, you and Bailey both share the "light up a room" smile....I myself have learned just how therapeutic paper crafting can be. So glad our paths have crossed. (((hugs)))


  9. I'm reading this with tears in my eyes and I truly ache for you. I could not imagine going through the pain you have and you are so strong for being able to tell that story, even 12 years later. The pain of losing a child never leaves but I'm a God fearing person and I believe you will be reunited with your little girl again. Thank you for sharing that story and for reminding us to appreciate our children now. I'm off to go give my children hugs.


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